*~lil la resistance

Fuck

2009-09-12T14:30:00.001-07:00

F it

Same gender hugs

2009-08-15T21:11:00.000-07:00

Hugs in public between same gender could usually seen amongst the female – not referring to some passionate related hugs.

it’s ironic for male isn’t it? Pondan I donno la.

wwhat it signifies?

it basically signifies how easy a person to open up feelings towards same gender mates. Might not apply to all people, but i think it does for most especially males. exception for some females.

When you hug same gender friends in public, many reactions could be seen and here is where i would tell u bout the tiny little secret of it (I knew this long ago, during some stupid motivasi kem).

in return, the particular friend hugged you back, feels warm.

- This is a friend who has high potential to be able to spend the whole night telling you problems, expressing feelings, share secrets, bla, bla, bla bla and bla. I must say, a brotherly friend.

Friend that forced himself/herself to withstand the hug. Pretending to accept it.

- Is a friend who could sacrifice and help you when u seek for one. A friend who can be trusted.

Friend who moves away pretending nothing is happening.

- Is a person who cares much about his/her appearance, pride, like to paint out only positive picture about himself/herself and how people look at him/her. Perhaps ego? Budget hensome/pretty?

- Not a friend who would share problems to same gender friends.

Friend who pushes you away at once with a monolog “That person is a homo”.

- Is a friend who only could be nothing more than just a normal friend. comfim ego.

Friend who pushes you away and punches you in the face.

- Is he/she considered friend? Huh…… Just punch and fuck the shit out of him/her. bak dtg r...!

i guess this explains about my hugs.

Same goes to kentut.

People who smells own kentut.
People who moves away after kentut.
“ “ blame other people after kentut.
“ “ smells other people’s kentut.
bla
bla
blab la
and bla….

Cant remember about this, I read this in an article during sek men.

Regret

2009-08-13T11:23:00.000-07:00

Human dun really appreciate isn’t it? And later in the day, living on with regrets.

I do appreciate care and concern, but why it still applies on to me?

Why?

p/s: cant sleep

Dog~

2009-07-25T00:46:00.000-07:00

I have been avoiding my previous life so long that writing this right now is giving me a jolt(anxiety). Flashbacks of a life once lost.

Well, again, the only reason i'm here is cause i feel alone and yeah i'm pretty damn bored, nothing to do, alone, whatever. Things have been pretty good. hm...

True i stil hav my bipolar disorder freak outs every now and again but i have been working through them -cigarattes as remedy, and even more impressive, i hav been supressing the more trivial/meaningles episodes. But today, i wanted to run away...

To explain this, i have ch00sen to be as vague as i could, just to avoid pleasing the certain people that thrive/imbedded well on other people's misery... What best i could do is name this post "Dog".

It is the name to the way i feel(not really true, but quite true :P) and the life i refuse to lead.

I reckon it just hurts when i have done the best at becoming a new me/life/style/person/anything-that-it-has-to-be, plus having a whole new border of mind only to worry if around ppl me are the same as they were before me (perhaps smokers? dotA players? rofl~) or are they on a new page of the story like i am.

I guess im selfish, seasonal(i dont agree, but someone said it is), but i had done the best to care for it.

I promise.. this will be the only-other than the early intro post, and last post for my blog. Coz i dun like to post and blogging. its all becoz of Bosan, its driving me crazy.

p/s: i dint know we cant input tanda seru.

A blogger for bloggers

2008-09-17T06:45:00.000-07:00

Well... hm..

it seems to be able to comment on orang laen punya blog... we must have our own account.

huh.. kinda unfair for coz i am not a blogger.

terpaksa la create blog yg x active.

nie la die...